"Latifa a7ibich fihmay please"
"Fahad i love you too wala i do"
"Will you marry me?"
"ofcourse"
"Latoof bayee akh6ibich khala9 lai meta"
I knew it would never happen because of my family.. they were always too busy trying to look for the perfect guy from our family.. I hated it, why wouldnt I pick my own man? Why?
"Inshallah"
"Ra7 akhali omi idig 3ala omich.. abi amsik eedich bil dawam abi il kil yadri inich zoujti magdar at7amal"
"baby im all yours"
"i want you to be mine, abee agom a9abi7 3ala wayhich abi asafir ma3ach abi atrayag ma3ach abeech 7agi kilich, ba3dain ana 9arli min shahar ily 6af gayilich bakh6ibich kaifich ilyom kalmay ahalich"
"7abeeby, ra7 akalim ahali ilyoum enshallah"
Fahad is the perfect guy.. the perfect guy for me, he's the sweetest guy you'll ever meet, he's not the most handsome guy but he has the purest heart. He's tall, muscular but has a small karasha, oo em9ale3. He loves me for who I am, he saw me at my worst and still thought I was beautiful. It all started when we met bel dawam 6 months ago, kan mas2ouli, and ever since I've been head over heels for him.
"Mama shlonich?
"Hala 7abeebti"
I didn't know how to start "Mama.. ako wa7ed byakh6bni"
"Haw o mino hatha? Shsma? Shsm oma? Mno obo?"
"Yuma mas2oli bil dawam e7ebni.. e7ebni 9ij min galba"
"Men welda?"
"Fahad Al ****"
"9ij?"
"Min9iji yuma shfeech?"
"7abeebty you know our lifestyle, et3arfeen 6areeqatna, et3arfeen shno a7na, et3arfeen mno nabeech takhtheen, ha shufay wild khawla ishzina nawi yakh6ibich"
"Mama I don't care about il shakliyat! mayheemni 6areeqat baitna ma yheemni weld khawla o a9lan mno weld khawla! ana a7iba o ohwa y7ibni o il rayal zain o y3aref raba o y9ali o y9oom o bi7i6ni ib 3yoona shno taboon akthar? kilina ib nindifin ib nafs il arth o ib nit7asab ib nafs il 6areeqa, il mojtama3 ohwa ili khala il nas tfakker eb hal 6areeqa il tafha, aham shay il rayal shareeni" Ok i lost it
"Fahma 8a9dch bas im sorry.. forget it, ana o obooch nabi ma9la7tich"
My eyes started to water "Whatever mama"
My dad came over.. "sh9ayer shfeech tabcheen 7abeebti?
"Baba I want to get married" I started crying
"O laish tabcheen?"
"Baba wallah il walad zain, il rayal shareeni o 7a6ni ib 3yoona o ymoot 3alay o masik man9eb bel dawam, shno il mane3? We don't choose our family names, we don't choose any of this hath ketbat allah o mayor twagfoon ni9eebi! il royal mo7taram o aham shay ana a3eesh merta7a o mestansa!"
"O mno il rayal" He looked at my mother
My mother replied "Weld Al *******"
My dad looked away "Latifa, you know the rules"
"Abeeh yuba abeeh khala9 mabi a7ad thani itha mazawjtooni ya mane metzawja!"
"Ana asif bas ana mo mwafiq o latift7een ma3ay il mawthoo3 you know my answer" He walked away..
I knew this would happen.. Shasawi ya rabi shagol 7ag fahad! I can't keep talking to him, mabi al3ab ib masha3ra, mabi al3ab ib masha3ri, mabi a3alga feni wela abi at3alag feeh.. I cried myself to sleep I don't know how I'm going to tell him..
..
..
I woke up next morning, picked up my coffee and headed to dawn.. I didn't know how I'm going to talk to him about ending our relationship..
Fahad calling
"9aba7 il 7ub"
"Hahaha ahlain someones happy today"
"akeeed bashoufich shlon mu mestanes"
"7abeeby walla 9aba7 il khaaaaair"
"Garabtay? Ana tawni dash il maktab"
"Kani degegtain o o9al"
"Na6rich please la i6awleen"
"ok 7abeeby"
..
"Il salam 3alaikom latifa keefek"
"Ahlan Nadine how are you?"
"Mr Fahad just handed us our report from last week, he told me to tell you to pick it up from his office"
Nadine was my partner at work, she's Lebanese, and there was Farah, my worst enemy at work, she was all over Fahad but he loved me anyway so she could dream on..
I knocked on Fahad's door, my heart skipped a beat
"Tfathal"
I walked in with a smile "Ahlan"
"Shal zain ya 7ilwilch ilyoum"
"thank you.."
"Latifa kalamt omi ams bilail w inshala ilyoum-.." I cut him off
"Ahh Fahad"
"Shfeech?"
"Fahad lazim agolek shay"
"Golay"
I looked away and started tearing up
"Shfeech 7abeebty why are you crying?" I started crying even harder
"Ahali..kalamthom"
"Shfeehom ahalich?"
*Silence*
He started heating up "Getlich shfeehom ahalich! shgalaw?"
"Ahali rfethaw"
"3ogob kel hatha.. tyeen tgolenli ahalich rfethaw!?" His tone got sharp
"Fahad mo eb eedi!" He got up in silence and looked out the window
"Fahad wallah el3atheem kalamt'hom mabuga shay magetlhom getlhom abeek o getlhom mane metzawja itha ma khathaitek, getlhom o nshefat 3yooni wana abchi mako fayda mo rathyeen o obooy mgafel!"
He ignored me and didn't move an inch
"Don't do this allah ekhaleek rid 3alay ga3d akalmik!"
"Fahad please" I walked towards him and held his shoulder "Wallah a7tajik"
While still giving me his back, he pushed my hand away "6il3ay bara"
"Baby pl-.."
He looked at me with anger in his eyes "Getlich 6el3ay bara ma tfhmeen!? O latgolenle baby!"
To be continued..
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Does anyone use blogspot or did everything run away from it?:(
Ps I miss blogging so much and I miss you all even more!
March 1st 2014 - Short Story
"Mabrouuuuuuuuuuk iltakharuuuuuuj Rashoud!!!! You made it!!"
"Allahybarek feech Maha wallah bedounech chan ma kamalt o khalast!!"
"Kela rafe3 rasy! menha lila3la enshallah welfal bil dawam wel promotions"
"Ajma3eeen"
"Ha yala jahez 7ag radait il Kuwait?"
"ufffff, 4 sneen wana adres wakrif eb Amreeka, mabaghait"
"yallah zaheb aghrathek 6ayartek bacher"
"Maha wallah ta3ban! Mafenii asawe jan6etii wala wala zahaaaaaagt"
"Rashoud yala 3ad bala kasal, goum goum sawha"
"Inshalla, bas waray cham shaghla, bayeeb hdoumi min il laundry o barou7 astilim aghrathe, ba3dain bared asawe jan6ety wanam"
"Ee 3afya 3alaik!"
"Yala 7abeebty, ana barou7 3ind rab3i al7een, itha taben ayshay degay 3alay"
"Inshala, deerbalek"
I closed the phone and smiled so hard. Akhh a7eba..
I whatsapped him an hour later "Rashed?"
Checked my fone 3 hours later, no answer.. Okay yemken lahee..
Ne6art, 6 hours.. nothing, ma3qoula??
I kept looking at my phone every minute, hoping there's a message from him.
I kept calling his phone, ma7ad ysheela
I was irritated, furious, worried, and scared.
Waina? It's 4 AM in the States.. I hate time difference.
Hours passed, nothing from him.
A day passed.
Two days.
I kept calling continuously every hour hoping someone would answer Rashed's phone..
I couldn't sleep at night. I stayed up thinking about every situation possible.. I cried silently, my boyfriend of 3 years is missing. O fog hatha, I don't even know what the hell happened!
Every now and then I would go on whatsapp and read our last chat, i looked at his last seen.. all i wanted is him to be online or just a phone call.
I felt my phone vibrate under my pillow, i quickly reached for it
incoming call +1312***********
A number from his area was calling, i was worried..
"A-alo?"
"Ahh maha?" a man questioned me
"Ee na3am, mno ma3ay?"
"Wyach Faisal, Rashod's roommate"
"Wain Rashed? Is he ok? 9arli yomain ma adre 3aina, waina? Shfe? -"
He interrupted "Mafeeh shay, lat7ateen"
"Shnu? laish chethe ma7ad ga3ed yjawebne? 3a6ne Rashed abee akalma!!!" I started crying
"T3awethay min blees, al7een ta7san"
"Laish shfee? Tkalemaw allah ykhalekoum"
"Sawa 7adith"
"7adith? Shnu wain?" My hand shivered, my body started heating..
"Kan bil saikal o d3emo wehwa yaylena gabel youmain"
"Uff.." Tears rolled dow my cheeks and my heart started pounding
"A7na makena nadre, kan bro7a rad o d3emo, wado ilmstashfa, re7nala o men youmha wa7na 3inda, 3a6ouni mobila o sheft 25 missed call minich, telefona 3ndna 6oul il wakt"
"..Inzain waina Rashed abee akalma"
"A7na al7en 3inda na6rena yg3ad, getla ilyoum inich daga o gale agoulich 3ashan mat7ateena"
"3a6ouneya"
"Mbanaj 3ogob il3amaleya, lama yg3ad ykalmech"
"3amaleyat shnu?"
"Eeda, sawolaha 3amaleya lana ilkaser chayed"
"..Ok, yizak allah khair, mashkor o 6amnouni 3alaih"
"Ma min shukur, lat7eena ra7 inkhale ikalmech eb agrab wakt momken"
"Ok"
...
4 hours later, my phone rang
AAHHH IT'S RASHED!!!!
"Alooo? Rashed?!"
"Ahh-Aloo?"
"7abeeby!! Rashed!!" my ears started tearing
"Mahaaaa" he could hardly talk, 7abeeby..
"Salamaaaaat salamaaat!! Ana mu getlek deerbalek!?"
He started giggling, he could barely laugh.. "Maha walla dayer bale bas madree sh9ar"
"Khawaftni 3alaik.. wallah Rashed 9arli youmain khayfa 3alaik wallah khayfa 3alaik! Madre mayet 7ay madre madre!!" I started crying, i tried holding it in but i couldn't
"Maha maha allah ykhaleech, la tabcheen wala ga3d t3awreen galbe, mafeeni shay 7abeebty bas lat7ateen"
"Allah 7fethek... shlounek al7een?"
"A7san wala, kesart eedy el thentain, chatfee fee sharkh o cham zalgh eb jesmi.. mako ela el 3afya.."
"Allah setar.. allah ygawmek bisalama.. allah 7fethek.. shlounek 3gb il 3amaleya what happened bthab6?"
"Ana bilsaykal ga3d asoug chan eye wa7d yd3amne wi6ayerni min ilsaykal, wadounni il mstashfa 3ala6oul wntay 6oul il wakt 3ala bale wala knt m7atech akthar mn ma m7ate nafsi, gabel shway m6al3eeni men 3amaleya, eedy maksora o galole il kaser kan yabeela 3amaleya"
"Salamat 3asa feeni wela feek, allah ygawmek bsalama eb agrab wakt ya rab o ya7fethek.. allah ykhaleek deerbalek marthanya"
"Inshallah, Maha ma getlech.."
"Shnu Rashed..goulee"
"mane rad il Kuwait 7ag shahar, galee il diktor magdar arkab 6ayara"
"ma3alaih.. aham shay 9i7itik lat7atee il rada! La7eg la7eg.. mawjoden kilna"
"Kint mishta6 3al rada.. kint abee akalem omi 3anich, abe aqadem watheefa, abe atqadamlech, abeech 7agee, kelech lee"
"Rashoud ana ba3ad abeek lee o bas lee, lat7ateeni ana mawjuda marou7 mukan, kane.. aham shay 9e7etek o leman tgoum belsalama, iseer khair.. ok?"
"Inshallah Maha, wallah a7ibich fehmay"
"7abeebty enta.. a7ibik akthar wenta tadre male ghairek"
"W ham entay, tadreen" his voice was so tired it ached me
"Adree Rashed adree.. isa3a cham 3endek?"
"10:30 bilail"
"Erta7 nam, kalemni ib agrab wakt ana mawjoda"
"Bas meshtaglech..7esay"
"Meshtagatlek akthar o rabe eny thay3a bedounek.. bas abeek terta7, wallah lo tsma3 soutek galbek be3awrek, i know enek ta3ban wala i can feel it, fa erta7, o awal ma tg3ad kalemne 3ala 6oul, 7ata lo you wake up in the middle of the night o you wanted to talk.. deg 3alay"
"Inshalla, tabeen shay Maha?"
"Abe salamatek, o abeek terta7, o ideerbalek"
"Inshallah, Maha?"
"Hala 7abeeby, amerni"
"A7ibich"
"Ana akthar Rashoud, wallah"
"Ti9b7een 3ala khair"
"Wenta men ahla.."
I closed the phone and kept staring at the ceiling. I was worried about him, It sucks being in different places, knowing i can't be there for him when he needed me the most, it sucks..really.
Day by day, i checked up on up.
Day by day, i called him.
I texted him.
I made him feel I was always there for him.
I felt like a part of me is missing when he's not here, but I needed to be strong, so he can be strong.
Just like soul mates, we helped each other out. Just like best friends, we talked for hours. Just like lovers, we took care of eachother. I mean, I love him. What can I do? Day by day, he got better.
One month passed, and he was back for good. I saw him a couple of times. I really did miss him.
Three months passed, and he got a job.
I'm proud of the man he became, confident and successful. I supported him, and so did he.
Exam week was here.. I didn't want to go through it. I kept studying, my head hurts!!! I was so pressured.
Incoming Call - Rashed
"Aloo?"
"Haa Maha, shloun elderasa?"
"Rashoud rase byenba6 bas mabe adres!!!"
"Hay haaaay! btadrseen, yala akher mara itjseen feeha kotob bekon hal sbou3, betakhrjain 3gb hal exam week sh3alaich"
"Abee atkharaj bas mabe adres"
"Dersay yalla kelha cham youm wala y3adun, entay gad'ha!!"
"Inshalla inshalla"
"Inzain Maha agdar ashofich ilyoum? Bakalmich tharouri"
"Enshallah"
Hours passed and I met up with Rashed at the parking of the jam3eya. He got in my car and smiled..
"Walhan 3alaich"
"Ana akthar wallah" I smiled
"Shlounech?
"il7imdillah, ha rashoud shfeek? khara3tne"
"shnu shfeeeeny laish baklech anaa?"
"laa qasde getle tabe tkalemne eb mawthou3 fa - " he cut me off
"Maha bakh6ebeh" woah what? i looked at him blankly o wayhe 7amar "Shfeech i6al3eeni chethe? men9iji!"
"Enshallah" i laughed
"Shfeech teth7keen? Wallah men9iji nawe akalem umi wakh6ebech sbou3 el yay, shrayech?"
..
1 year later
7 AM.
"Goum 7abeeby goum"
"Haa shnuu"
"Warak dawam yallah goum Rashoud" i gently tried waking him up
"ta3baan ta3ban male khulg!"
"Yalla 7abeeby basek noum, tabee asaweelek ryoug?"
"Gahwa bas"
"La shnu gahwa bas, ekel basaweelek club sandwich, goum ghasel 3ala ma asaweeha, mu tnam"
He looked at her and smiled, he was thankful for Maha. "Enshallah, enzain Maha?"
"Hala rashoud"
"A7ibech"
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(أَحبهُ)
"Enshallah"
Hours passed and I met up with Rashed at the parking of the jam3eya. He got in my car and smiled..
"Walhan 3alaich"
"Ana akthar wallah" I smiled
"Shlounech?
"il7imdillah, ha rashoud shfeek? khara3tne"
"shnu shfeeeeny laish baklech anaa?"
"laa qasde getle tabe tkalemne eb mawthou3 fa - " he cut me off
"Maha bakh6ebeh" woah what? i looked at him blankly o wayhe 7amar "Shfeech i6al3eeni chethe? men9iji!"
"Enshallah" i laughed
"Shfeech teth7keen? Wallah men9iji nawe akalem umi wakh6ebech sbou3 el yay, shrayech?"
..
1 year later
7 AM.
"Goum 7abeeby goum"
"Haa shnuu"
"Warak dawam yallah goum Rashoud" i gently tried waking him up
"ta3baan ta3ban male khulg!"
"Yalla 7abeeby basek noum, tabee asaweelek ryoug?"
"Gahwa bas"
"La shnu gahwa bas, ekel basaweelek club sandwich, goum ghasel 3ala ma asaweeha, mu tnam"
He looked at her and smiled, he was thankful for Maha. "Enshallah, enzain Maha?"
"Hala rashoud"
"A7ibech"
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(أَحبهُ)
Dec 21 2013 - Short Story
"Libsay shay mouree7 7abeebti, 3ashr degayg ana 3ndich"
"Laish wain bnrou7?"
"T3arfeen leman n7ark, yala badlay a6iglich hirin lama o9al"
"Inshalaaaaaa"
..
Beep Beep!
sema3t 9out el heren.. SHIT 7amad bythba7ne!! I was in a rush, ga3d a7ous ib darna adawer jouteye.. ma legaita!!
My phone started ringing
"Alooo?"
"Ghalooy yalla!!"
"7amad wallah dgeega en6er ga3d adawer jouteye!"
"Yallah bser3a tara maku suprise ba3dain"
"Kani kani dgeega walla walla"
"Mashy yallah na6rech anaa"
I found my shoes, lebast'hom bsr3a ou nezalt.. I locked our house door and ran to the car, i could see 7amad in the car mtani7 3ala telefona.. yazeena
As i approached the car, 7amad glimpsed at me
"6awalt?"
he smiled "Shway"
"7amad shfeek tith7ak!"
"Yazeen mourtiiiii"
"Ush ush ush" i slightly pushed his face and turned my face to the window
"Inzain shfech mista7ya?" he giggled
"7amaaaaad!!"
"Khala9 khaalaaa9 inzaain, ha yala jahza?"
"Wain binroo7?"
"A6lebch 6alab?"
"amerni 7abeby"
"Uff uff shno?? shgeltay?" he smiled
"shnoo? gelt amernii" i blushed
"la laaa 3ogobha, amernii shnu?"
"7amaaaaad! Khalaaaaa9!" i covered my face with my hand as he held the other
"Inzain ghalouy al7een 9arlina shahrain mitzawjeen, laish lail7en test7een leman tgolenha?"
"ma aste7ii shaaakuu!"
"eeee ee 9a7, inzain yala meshaina"
We turned on 88.8 and listened to some music.. it was 8pm and kind of chilly outside
"eedech barda, bardana?"
"shway.."
"shoufay darajat il7arara 10 bara"
"eeeh bard!"
"laish mu midafya 7abeebty?"
"makent adre chethi bekun bard.."
"yallah ma3alaih.. ilmara il yaya tedafay o lbsay 3adel" he held my hand tighter.. goosebumps covered my skin
We got to a huge beach and parked our car
"Yallah nezlay"
"Wain?"
"emshay"
Nezalna min the sayara and walked towards the beach.. 7amad came towards me and wrapped his arm around my shoulders
We walked and walked till we got to the seashore.. I stared at the beach
"Laykon bin6ib?
"ee 6bay"
"Shnu?" I looked at him with a stupid look
"Kheblaaa? wain in6ib ib hal bard!" he started laughing
"Madree 3anik!"
"Inzain turn around" I turned around ou 3a6ait il ba7ar thahre
"3eday lai 20.."
"Okay"
"Out loud mu ib galbich"
"1..2...3...4....5..."
"3afya"
"10..11..12..13..14..15...16...17"
"18..19...20"
"20..alef?
"lefay.."
I turned around and found a boat waiting for us with lights and a dinner table
I gasped "aallaaaaaaaaah! 7amaaaad!"
"shrayech?"
"hatha.." i looked at him "7agnaa?"
"ee 7abeebty.. 7agna" he smiled and held my hand "emshay nerkab"
I was speechless..i looked at him with love, I didn't know what to say or do.. I'm such a lucky woman
We got into the boat and sat on the dinner table o mesha el 6arad feena..
"umbay 7amad.. wallah madre shagoulek! 7adek 9idamtni! O fara7tni"
"3asa doum ya rab, shfeech mesta7ya?"
"walah madre shagoulek min ilfar7a.. I dont' know how to thank you or pay you back"
"Tadren shnu abi tsawen?"
"Shnu 7abeeby, amerni.."
"Ebgay wyay, o latkhaleni"
"Ma akhaleek, lo elsima tinshag"
"Akeed?"
"Akeedain"
He smiled "A7ibich ghalouy"
"Ana akthar"
We enjoyed dinner and had a talk.. we talked about silly things and our stupid childhood moments and how we met.. I looked at him as he talked about things he loved.. his eyes shined, I really felt connected to him. A7ba.. I felt loved, and I love him more than anything.
"Tathker 7amad?
"Shnu?
"Tathker awal mara sheftek feeha?
"Shloun ma athker? Awal ma yaitaw elmostashfa tzoroun umi allah yer7amha..sheftich o 7asait min awal nathra intay ghair.. lail7een athker ili kintay labstita.. kintay labsa nafnouf azrag o raf3a sha3rich.. athker youm omich galatlich it9ebeen laha gahwa, 9abaitay il gahwa 3ala il9iniya.. kan feeni il tha7ka bas kent masek'ha.. athker youm katatay il gahwa wayhech 7amar.. kentay mesta7ya meni.. 9a7?"
I smiled "9a7.."
"O men youmha tadren ma hadaitay tafkeeri?"
I smiled and held his hand
"Tadreen kent kilyoum leman azour umi bel mstashfa kent as2alha 3an omich..o kent atmana enha tyeeb 6areyech.. o 3ogobha ib youmain, yaitay zertay omi elmstashfa wya ekhtich.. o hal youm gelt 7ag umi abeech 3ala sinat allah w rasolah, umi kalemat omich w 3ogobha eb shahrain melacht 3alaich.. w men youmha wana wela mara ib 7ayati 7asait iny wagif bro7i, men youm ma 9ertay le wana a7mid rabi.. ya bakhti.."
"Yabakhte ana feek"
We continued talking until it was 10:30pm.. the boat returned us to the seashore ou rekabna elsayara. Awal ma rekabt elsayara seda7t el kersi o ghamatht 3yuni
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......
.......
"Ghalouy? Nemtay? yallah gomay we9alna.."
"La..kane ga3da..."
"Khalech khalech.." He carried me like a baby and took me to our bed and closed the lights "Ti9b7en 3ala khair 7abeebti.."
"Laish wain bnrou7?"
"T3arfeen leman n7ark, yala badlay a6iglich hirin lama o9al"
"Inshalaaaaaa"
..
Beep Beep!
sema3t 9out el heren.. SHIT 7amad bythba7ne!! I was in a rush, ga3d a7ous ib darna adawer jouteye.. ma legaita!!
My phone started ringing
"Alooo?"
"Ghalooy yalla!!"
"7amad wallah dgeega en6er ga3d adawer jouteye!"
"Yallah bser3a tara maku suprise ba3dain"
"Kani kani dgeega walla walla"
"Mashy yallah na6rech anaa"
I found my shoes, lebast'hom bsr3a ou nezalt.. I locked our house door and ran to the car, i could see 7amad in the car mtani7 3ala telefona.. yazeena
As i approached the car, 7amad glimpsed at me
"6awalt?"
he smiled "Shway"
"7amad shfeek tith7ak!"
"Yazeen mourtiiiii"
"Ush ush ush" i slightly pushed his face and turned my face to the window
"Inzain shfech mista7ya?" he giggled
"7amaaaaad!!"
"Khala9 khaalaaa9 inzaain, ha yala jahza?"
"Wain binroo7?"
"A6lebch 6alab?"
"amerni 7abeby"
"Uff uff shno?? shgeltay?" he smiled
"shnoo? gelt amernii" i blushed
"la laaa 3ogobha, amernii shnu?"
"7amaaaaad! Khalaaaaa9!" i covered my face with my hand as he held the other
"Inzain ghalouy al7een 9arlina shahrain mitzawjeen, laish lail7en test7een leman tgolenha?"
"ma aste7ii shaaakuu!"
"eeee ee 9a7, inzain yala meshaina"
We turned on 88.8 and listened to some music.. it was 8pm and kind of chilly outside
"eedech barda, bardana?"
"shway.."
"shoufay darajat il7arara 10 bara"
"eeeh bard!"
"laish mu midafya 7abeebty?"
"makent adre chethi bekun bard.."
"yallah ma3alaih.. ilmara il yaya tedafay o lbsay 3adel" he held my hand tighter.. goosebumps covered my skin
We got to a huge beach and parked our car
"Yallah nezlay"
"Wain?"
"emshay"
Nezalna min the sayara and walked towards the beach.. 7amad came towards me and wrapped his arm around my shoulders
We walked and walked till we got to the seashore.. I stared at the beach
"Laykon bin6ib?
"ee 6bay"
"Shnu?" I looked at him with a stupid look
"Kheblaaa? wain in6ib ib hal bard!" he started laughing
"Madree 3anik!"
"Inzain turn around" I turned around ou 3a6ait il ba7ar thahre
"3eday lai 20.."
"Okay"
"Out loud mu ib galbich"
"1..2...3...4....5..."
"3afya"
"10..11..12..13..14..15...16...17"
"18..19...20"
"20..alef?
"lefay.."
I turned around and found a boat waiting for us with lights and a dinner table
I gasped "aallaaaaaaaaah! 7amaaaad!"
"shrayech?"
"hatha.." i looked at him "7agnaa?"
"ee 7abeebty.. 7agna" he smiled and held my hand "emshay nerkab"
I was speechless..i looked at him with love, I didn't know what to say or do.. I'm such a lucky woman
We got into the boat and sat on the dinner table o mesha el 6arad feena..
"umbay 7amad.. wallah madre shagoulek! 7adek 9idamtni! O fara7tni"
"3asa doum ya rab, shfeech mesta7ya?"
"walah madre shagoulek min ilfar7a.. I dont' know how to thank you or pay you back"
"Tadren shnu abi tsawen?"
"Shnu 7abeeby, amerni.."
"Ebgay wyay, o latkhaleni"
"Ma akhaleek, lo elsima tinshag"
"Akeed?"
"Akeedain"
He smiled "A7ibich ghalouy"
"Ana akthar"
We enjoyed dinner and had a talk.. we talked about silly things and our stupid childhood moments and how we met.. I looked at him as he talked about things he loved.. his eyes shined, I really felt connected to him. A7ba.. I felt loved, and I love him more than anything.
"Tathker 7amad?
"Shnu?
"Tathker awal mara sheftek feeha?
"Shloun ma athker? Awal ma yaitaw elmostashfa tzoroun umi allah yer7amha..sheftich o 7asait min awal nathra intay ghair.. lail7een athker ili kintay labstita.. kintay labsa nafnouf azrag o raf3a sha3rich.. athker youm omich galatlich it9ebeen laha gahwa, 9abaitay il gahwa 3ala il9iniya.. kan feeni il tha7ka bas kent masek'ha.. athker youm katatay il gahwa wayhech 7amar.. kentay mesta7ya meni.. 9a7?"
I smiled "9a7.."
"O men youmha tadren ma hadaitay tafkeeri?"
I smiled and held his hand
"Tadreen kent kilyoum leman azour umi bel mstashfa kent as2alha 3an omich..o kent atmana enha tyeeb 6areyech.. o 3ogobha ib youmain, yaitay zertay omi elmstashfa wya ekhtich.. o hal youm gelt 7ag umi abeech 3ala sinat allah w rasolah, umi kalemat omich w 3ogobha eb shahrain melacht 3alaich.. w men youmha wana wela mara ib 7ayati 7asait iny wagif bro7i, men youm ma 9ertay le wana a7mid rabi.. ya bakhti.."
"Yabakhte ana feek"
We continued talking until it was 10:30pm.. the boat returned us to the seashore ou rekabna elsayara. Awal ma rekabt elsayara seda7t el kersi o ghamatht 3yuni
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"Ghalouy? Nemtay? yallah gomay we9alna.."
"La..kane ga3da..."
"Khalech khalech.." He carried me like a baby and took me to our bed and closed the lights "Ti9b7en 3ala khair 7abeebti.."
Post 34 - Welcome To Reality
Incoming Call - Bader (not my brother, my baby..)
Me - GASSPPPP UMBAAAAAAAAAY LOOK WHOS CALLING!!!!!!!!
Dalal - Answer!!!!
Me - NO!!!!!
Dalal - Shille yala!!
Me - No! i threw my fone 3ala Dalal
Dalal - Fine ana asheela! r3esat el "answer" button o ga6at il sama3a 3alay...
Incoming Call - Bader
Me - A-Aloo? I tried not to sound nervous
Bader - Layan? I miss his voice...it's been forever..
Me - Halla Bader
Bader - Shlounech?
Me - Il7imdilah, enta shlounek?
Bader - Tamam allah ysalmech i fucking miss you..ughhhh! Mabrook el takharok
Me - Allahybareek feek maga9art
Bader - Enshala tetkharijain min iljam3a
Me - Ajma3een
Bader - Wainech? mashqula?
Me - Eeh shway
Bader - Kalmeeni awal ma taftheen abee akalmech eb mawthu3
Me - Inshallah
Bader - Deerbalich Layan..bye
Me - inshala yala bye..
Hangs up
Dalal - How'd it go?
Me - Umbay Dalal galbe ga3d i6ig feel it! i put her hand on my chest my day has been complete! sema3t 9outa tadreen how good this feels?
Dalal - Shgal?
Me - barakle w gale yabe ykalemne leman aftha
Dalal - Sheftay! Il7imdilah ya rab! Allah enshala yejma3 ma7abatkum bel khair!
Me - Ameen!
We finally got home & we decided to lay down in bed and watch some tv shows! we were both so exhausted!! Dalola got into bed, ana dashait il7amam, took all the makeup off & brushed my teeth, awal ma 6ala3t legait Dalal nayma..masraa3!
I really wanted to call Bader..i miss him! Yallah let's see what he got
Outgoing Call - Bader (my baby..not my brother)
Bader - Alo?
Me - Alo hala bader
Bader - hala layan
Me - shlounek
Bader - il7imdilah, wainech?
Me - I'm at home
Bader - Layan entay wainech 3ane kel hal ayam?
Me - Ana waine 3anek? enta wainek 3ane Bader!!!! Matadre 3ane!
Bader - Adezlech msg matrideen..matadreen 3ane ana 3ayesh mayet! Shlon chethe tsaween feeeni!? Shloun galbech y6aw3ech matkalmeeni 7ag 3 MONTHS!? Ana me7tereg! Mu gader, ga3ed adawer ay 3ether aye akalmech feh, fagdech! Tefhmeen shnu ya3ni fagdech? Tekfa 7esay! 7esay shwaya!! Maku galb!?
Me - O you really think it was okay 7age ena ma kalamtek 7ag 3 months? Bader ana ma kalamtek w sheft ena ma kalamtne! na6retek tkalemne wana fagditik! i miss you so much efham..i'm so hurt...i'm so lost without you, this hasn't been easy!!! Do you know how it feels like waking up every single morning knowing you're not mine anymore? Ma anam ana ela wana 3yune m'3ourga...I miss you Bader, wallah i miss you..magdar..magdar akamel 3ala hal 7ala ely mankalem ba3ath!
Bader - Wela ana kelesh mu gader, wayed 9a3eb 3alay ga3d a3ane 7ail...fagdech wallah fadgech, eldenya 9aka feeni, entay hadaiteni, mnu 3ndi ana? ma3ndi a7ad ghairech, entay 7abeebty o hatha el shay la yumken yetqayar!! it was a misunderstanding argument o lo ma abeech chan re7t 7ag Rayan, bas hal zbala ma teswa thifir menech
Me - Ma hadaitek ana! please latgul chethe Bader, tadre ena 3ala kether ma we argue o net'hawash, not even a million fights can make me love you less
Bader - Wentay tadren male qairech..
Me - Ana asfa wallah ana asfa 3ala ely 9ar..
Bader - Shh 7abeebty..la tet2asafain, ana ely asef, a7ibech ok?
Me - Wana akthar..
Bader - Abeech t3arfeen ena ana bedounech ma aktemel. I don't know who i am without you. Tadreen shnu ya3ne a3ane bedounech? Ta3abt! Wala ta3abt! Nafsiyan 9ert mohmel! Hemalt nafse wayed o i shut down...you're my better half fehmay o hal shay lo shno yetqayar..atmana hal 3 months mayen3adoun again la2ana they were hell for me
Me - mayen3adoun, wallah i promise
Bader - Enshallah, ma getlech, this time next year akun khales jam3a
Me - Uff mashala ya3ne tetkharaj 20?
Bader - Bethn allah
Me - I'm proud of you wallah..kafu chethe yerf3un el ras
Bader - 3ashanech wallah, ne6ray bas khal atkharaj wel wa3ad gedam
Me - Hahaha ulla laish shnawe 3alaih!
Bader - Just wait & see! Wain nawya jam3a inshala o ay major?
Me - GUST aw KU, accounting
Bader - Ta3alay 3indi GUST
Me - Itha qbaloonii KU business ra7 adish'ha, wetha la2 enshala male ghair GUST
Bader - Mwafega enshala, baythay el shahada
Me - Latwa9ee 7aree9 inshala
Bader - Kafu 3alaich
We kept talking & talking for 30 minutes then i decided to go to bed after such a long & hectic day..
Bader - Namay damech ta3bana Layan
Me - Enshala, tamerni 3ala shay?
Bader - Yes, kalmeni leman tg3deen bacher, o sleeptight
Me - Inshalah, goodnight Bader ill talk to you tomorrow
Bader - yallah goodnight...
Hangs up
I threw myself on my bed and smiled..this day can't get any better, allah ytamem
1 message received from Bader:
"I missed you..ru7e radait leman kalamtech"
I replied back:
"I missed you more Bader, i really did..and i'm glad we had this phone call"
1 message received from Bader:
"Wala mu kithre..ti9b7een 3ala khair 7abeebty"
I replied back:
"W inta men ahla ;*"
And just like that, we were back again.
I love him so much.
The love we had was indescribable.
I love how not even a million fights can make us love each other less.
I love you baby, don't ever leave me..
Post 33 - Welcome To Reality
June 6th 2013..GRADUATION DAY!
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Mama - Layan goomay goomay esa3a 12! Warach Salon!!
Me - Yumaaaaaaaaaa ta3bana khalouni anaaaaam!
Mama - Meta betru7een wetkhalseen shiqlich?
Me - Ba3dain ba3dain.....i covered myself with the blanket
Mama - Makuu yala gomay! she pulled the blanket off of me
Me - ukhhh finee!
Ga3adt bel yaaaaaaala o sa7abt rou7i lai el7amam, khathaitle shower, then breakfast...
Waffles & Nutella...my favorite yummy..
I went upstairs, changed, and went to the saloon at 1:30pm. I asked her to blow dry my hair and curly it into soft curls men ta7at, and i got my nails done as well. Meshait men elsalon at around 3 & got in my car..
Outgoing call - Dalal
Dalal - Hala bel khireeja!!
Me - Halaaaaa feech!
Dalal - Shlounech? Wilaht 3alaich!
Me - Wallah ana akthar ya kalbaa
Dalal - Wainech entay?
Me - Sayara, bayeech al7een betsaweenle my make up latensaiin
Dalal - Yala ana ma3ende shay ga3da bel bait
Me - Yala ana yayaa now
Dalal - waitingggg
Hangs up
I got to Dalal's place, rang the bell, and to my surprise..OMAR OPENED THE DOOR!
Me - Ahh hala Omar nazalt rase
Omar - Hala Layan shlounech? Tfathelay
Me - Il7imdilah
Omar - Mabrook 3al takharuj, menha lila3la
Me - Allah ybarek feek Omar mashkour, ajma3een enshala
Omar - Shufay Layan, adre enech za3lana meni bas latlomeeni..ma a2amen ekhte 3end ay a7ad kha9atan hal shabab ely shefthum. Twaqi3ay radat fi3il ay o5oo chithi. Entay 7isbat ekhtii o mabeech tiz3ileen miny.
Me - La akeed, bel3aks I'm sorry o mara7 ten3ad
Omar - Ma3alaih, 3azeza o ghalya ti6awaf..Dalal foug ru7elaha na6retech
Me - Okay
I walked up to Dalal's room upstairs and barged in
Dalal - Yah yah yaaaah shal sha3aaaaaaar
Me - Sheftay shloun
Dalal - Ge3day ge3day we have a lot to do!
Me - Ohh god lat'hawleen feeni lo sama7tay, waray takhuruj
Dalal - What time do you have to bel Raya?
Me - 5:30
Dalal - Ee zain taw'ha 3:30, yabeelna sa3a so 4:30 nkhale9
Me - Yala ma warana shay
Dalal - Shnu she3ourech wentay betekhrjain elyoum? The day ely lawa3tay chabde feeh?
Me - ma baagha eyiiii, il7imdilah khala9na, yallah entay mta ur grad gilteelii?
Dalal - Ya 7aywana nisaitay? 3ogob bacher!!!!
Me - Mawa9eech ilyoum, naabe faz3a
Dalal - Sawaitlech posters ba3ad shufay she pointed at them
Me - 3ashaaaaaat!!!!
Dalal - Shefta shloun! inzain i'm going to clip your hair 3ashan el makeup may7oush sha3rech
Me - Eeh ekhthay ra7tech she clipped my hair and started applying some make up enzain agoul Dalal
Dalal - Halaaa
Me - T'hagain Bader ykalemne?
Dalal - Atwaqa3 ya3ne, elmafruth he does atleast mabrook
Me - Mestaw3eba it's been 3 months? 3 months bas chethe mu mkalmeen ba3ath?
Dalal - Kelesh mu mestaw3eba wallah
Me - I miss him 7ail
Dalal - It was a misunderstanding ely bainkum, time will fix things ne6ray o khalay theqetich eb allah qaweya
Me - Enshallah
1 hour later, Dalal was done with my make up
Dalal - ha shrayech?
Me - allah i look so beautiful with all this makeup!!
Dalal - haay you're always beautiful! With or without makeup!
Me - Yakhe a7ibich
Dalal - ana akthaar she pushed my face
Me - haaaayw mekyaje la yekhtereb!
Dalal - oh pleasseeee! shufay hatha balbesa elyoum for your grad she pulled out a dark blue fit dress with a simple belt and heels
Me - Alllaaaaaaah 7ada 7iluu!
Dalal - Wala 3ashanech bas
Me - men gadeeeee wala
Dalal - oooookhh! esa3a 5 wentay lail7een ma meshaitay! go go la titakherain!
Me - Whoops! Yalah thank you wayed wayed ill see you in a few hours byeeee!
I quickly ran down the stairs, got into my car, and drove off to my house.
Lebast my graduation dress o my heels, ume yat bakhiratne o basatne 3ala rase..
Mama - Yah yah yah shzeen bentii!!!
Me - 6al3a 3alaich youma!
Mama - Ta3alay daree i have a surprise for you
Me - Ahh surprise? Wanasa what is it!
Mama - ta3alay ta3alay!
Me - i tried running with my heels to her room
Mama - shway shway la6e7een!
Me - I got to my mothers room haw youma wain il surprise!
... - Kahee okhoy 6ala3le men wara el bab
Me - UKHH!!!! BADER!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UMBAY I MISSED YOU WAY YAL 7AYWAAAAN!!! i hugged him
Bader - Ana akthaaaar!!!!!! Shrayech bel mofaja2a!?
Me - A7la mofaja2a bel denya!!!!!!! I can't believe you're back!!!!
Bader - Walla yait 3ashanech! Tara waray 9aife eb Amreeka bas bared 3 ayam w bared Amreeka ba3dain aridlikom enshala shahar 8!
Me - 3ade 3ade wallah aham shay yaaaat! I smiled so hard and my eyes started tearing
Bader - 7abeebty latabcheen! he whipped my tears and hugged me
Me - Matakhayal shktihir mistansa!
Bader - Wallah mu kithre! Ilyoum ana nawe asawe loyaaa leman ynadoun esmech
Me - 9aaaa7 3alaik!!
Mama - Yallah 7abeebty waraach takharoj you're already latee!
Me - Yallah badoor ana ashufek bel graduation enshallah
Bader - Deerbalech 3ala nafsech!
Me - Enshallah!
I was very happy il7imdilah! I got to my car and turned the volume up and started singing men el fara7! Best day every!
Wesalt el raya o we got ready, last minute things, sheft my friends ga3adt weyahum shway o 9awarna chan eye el principal
Mr.Tom: Come on Everyone! Take your places we're going in now!
Ahh shit! I was so nervous! I got goosebumps! Everyone looked so nervous and happy at the same time
Me - Umbay noor 3asa ma a6ee7 bel dakhla!!!
Noor - Way la enshallah ma7ad i6ee7!
Aziz - Agoul entaw lithnain 6eraw, a7es ana ely badba'3 3ala wayhe, jouteye akbar men wayhe
We laughed
Me - Deerbalkm!
Noor - Umbay yala now bendesh!!!
We walked and walked lai el stage
my heart was beating so fast and i could hear Dalal in the background "LAYAAAAAAN WOOOOOOO!" i smiled and got to my place on stage
Everyone got their diplomas o it was my turn next
Stath Fahad: al 6aliba Layan *** **** *** Al *****
I walked across stage wana khayfa o mestansa eb nafs el wakt!
I could hear my family and Dalal cheering for me and that made me the happiest person on earth! 7imdilllah ya rab! I made it!
10:00PM
Grad was over and we got off stage...i saw Dalal running to me
Dalal - Mabrook yal 7elwaaa!!!!! She jumped on me and hugged me so hard El fal lee enshallah!!!!!!
Me - Allahybarek feech!!!! Enshallah!
Bader - Mabrook ya a7la ekhet bel denya!!!! He hugged & kissed me
Me - Allahybarek Badooooor!! i saw my parents walking towards me
Mama - Bnayte!
Me - Mamaaa!! Babaa!! i ran to both my parents and hugged them with joy
Mama - mabrook 7abeebtii! She kissed my cheeks
Me - Allah ybarek feech! I kissed her forehead
Baba - Kafu wallah, hathe bnayte! Terf3een el ras 7abeebty i'm so proud of you he kissed my forehead
Me - Sheft shloun yuba, kel hatha 3ashankum
Baba - Yala elfal shahadat iljam3a
Me - Enshallah
We took photos & laughed o solafna leman meshaw ahale
Dalal - Ha yala? 3ala elwa3ad Bader?
Bader - Yallah 3ala el wa3aaaaad
Me - Ha? Shnu? Ay wa3ad entaw ba3ad shnaween 3alaih!
Dalal - mu nawyeeeen bas benwadeech 3ashaaa ya 3umre
Bader - Meshainaa?
Me - Yalaaaah allah wyaana
We got into my car and Bader okhoy decided to drive..
Me - Wain ray7een??
Bader - Wain tabeen?
Dalal - Nagay
Me - Johnny yummmmmmmmmy!!! Aw Maki Burj Jassem
Bader - ulla tadreen shnu ya3nii minziman mu makl Maki?
Me - Yala emsh Maki
Dalal - walla tifhmooooooon
Me - Jad yabeela!
i took my phone out and checked twitter and whatsapp
a few "Mabrouk!" tweets and whatsapps
Whatsapp
Zaid: Mabrouk 3al takharuj!
Me: Allahybarik feek mashkur!
Zaid: ilfal lee
Me: Inshala sbou3 il yay ;p
Zaid; inshala!
and we ended the convo..
I like how things are simple between Ziad and I
Just friends
Normal friends..
W9alna Maki, ga3adna ana w Bader okhoy w Dalal o ga3adna nsulef...it was almost 11:30pm and that's when we left Maki
Me - Thank you both wayed allah laya7remni mnkom!!
Bader - testahlaaaaaain
Dalal - bthab6, wallah a9lan hatha shwaya! testahlain akthar!
Me - a7ibkom!
Dalal - wa7na akthar, tnameen 3indi wla ana anam 3indich?
Me - 3indiiiii minziman ma nmna 3ndi
Bader - Inzain ana shlon 3alay wana ga3d asoug sayartech Layan, sayarti bel raya
Me - Ee emsh ilraya mu b3eed, ekheth sayartek w ana w Dalool nru7 eb sayarte
Bader - Wain bitru7on? Baitna wela bait Dalal?
Me - Baitna
Bader - Tamam
Me - bitrid el bait?
Bader - La baroo7 shalaih 9a7bi
We got to Al Raya o Badoor nezal men elsayara chan he knocks the window 3alay
Bader - Deerbalkoum hal 7aza kela me6afeeg, la yde3amkm wa7d
Me - Inshalaa
Dalal - lat7ateenaa inshalaa
Bader - yala ana bamshe taboon shay?
Dalal & I - Salamtek
We drove off to my house for the best sleepover ever
Dalal - I miss our sleepovers
Me - Uff jad we haven't had one in forever! i blame exams
Dalal - il7imdilah ftakaina
Me - il7imdilaah ya rab!
Dalal - Takaylay ilyoum-... my fone interrupted
Incoming Call - Bader (not my brother, my baby..)
Me - GASSPPPP UMBAAAAAAAAAY LOOK WHOS CALLING!!!!!!!!
Dalal - Answer!!!!
Me - NO!!!!!
Dalal - Shille yala!!
Me - No! i threw my fone 3ala Dalal
Dalal - Fine ana asheela! r3esat el "answer" button o ga6at il sama3a 3alay...
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