Post 32 - Welcome To Reality

Dedicated to Dana xo
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Bader: Fahamtay 3alay!? tekfa la tefhmeen qala6 still holding my hand in a harsh way..it hurt..

Me: Khalast kalamek? i muttered

Bader: Ee

Me: Allah weyak i gave him my back and walked towards my car

I walked away with anger..

Tears started streaming down my face and my vision got really blurry. 

We9alt sayarti o dest lai el bait, i was upset..

I was disappointed and hurt!

I cruised around for a bit to relax and realize what just happened! Wana ga3d asug, faj2a ran telefouni...

Incoming Call - Mama

i cleared my voice

Me - Alo?

Mama - Hala 7abebty wainech?

Me - Yuma ana marait bait rfeejti yebt cham shaqla, al7en rada el bait

Mama - 9outech ta3ban, feech shay?

Me - la wala bas feeni il noum

Mama - ee zain tara warach madresa bacher

Me - Yumaa laa2 male khulg adawem 3ogob hal hai9a!

Mama - yala 3ad bala dala3 tara btetkharijain ba3ad shahrain, sheday 7ailech w dawmay bacher

Me - Ta3bana walla mafeeni!

Mama - Taw'ha esa3a 7:30, reday ilbait badlay ta3ashay 

Me - Hff fine, meta Dalal w ubuy yo9loon?

Mama - 11 PM 

Me - Enzain 3ade amurhum wared el bait wya ubuy wanam 3enda?

Mama - la 7abeebty maga3dt weyach men radaitay o shi6al3ich isa3a 11? Matadreen yimkin ta2kheer t9eer 3alaiha 

Me - Inshala

Mama - A7ibich 7abeebty yala i'll be waiting at home, do you want anything to eat?

Me - La I'm fine mashkura mama

Mama - see you at home, byee

Hangs up

My head was pounding and my heart was aching! Ga3adt adous wadous wadous,,yala abee o9al ilbait...i need my bed i need home i need my mother i need to sleep!

1 message received from Bader: 

Ladouseen..

I ignored it, threw my phone away, and starting speeding faster and faster..

I finally got home, 6ab3an 7ade halkana o ta3bana o lay3a chabde men everything and everyone right now!

Look at me! I'm weak

Bader's a mess

Zaid's a mess

School's a mess

EVERYTHING!

I got into bed, set my alarm at 6:00, dug my face into the pillow, and starting crying my heart out. 

Thoughts and over thinking were destroying me by the second.

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Fazait men noumte, chayakt telefone wila it was 5:30 AM..

Gemt men lifrash w re7t tsaba7t..nashaft sha3re..badalt..nezalt sawaitle ryoug o re7t elmadresa..

Day one of school passed by..

Day two of school passed by..

Day three of school passed by...

A month..

Two months..

Three months..

School was finally over 

Nothing from Bader

Nothing from me

We left each other hanging like we never meant shit to eachother.

I was hurting but i held my head high.

I miss him.

I wanted to crawl in his hands and cry like a baby.

I want you Bader.

I NEED you Bader!

Zaid recovered o t7amadtla bel salama

By June, fachait 3an Zaid as well, we were friends bas ya3ne mu el close, we were normal friends. Bain fatra w fatra ashufa bel zwara o bas...

June 6th 2013..GRADUATION DAY!

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